coming down

I've been lazy to blog and honestly I dont know whats wrong with me lately. I haven't really been out as much and these past weekends, all I've been doing is staying home, working on pictures and writing poems. I havent done anything productive, I haven't practice my "Cry Me A River" dance for my class, and sorta been flaking it off, which isn't me. I guess I've been feeling like a bad guy lately. I feel like I've been a little too nice lately and now everyones just stepping on me.. I make plans and they just keep on failing and failing. I dont know what's come over me. I'm not very fond of this word, but I'm very sorry if I've been a little out of the blue, flaking, being late, or honestly not even there at all. I know I can't be there for everyone but I wish I could. Someone once told me "Your not used to people being mad at you" and to tell you the truth, I really can't have anyone mad or even pissed at me. Even for me.. It takes a lot for me to be mad or even pissed at someone, and I just don't know why. I try to be the best I can be, always being there, trying to always be there, even though I know I should just leave it alone..

To everyone who I've been MIA from lately I'm sorry. I guess I'm just lacking adventure. I'm missing out on too much.

As for now, heres one of the many poems I've wrote. Hopefully things would be better soon..

"your looking down and im wonderin why,
wheres your smile, i dont wanna see you cry,
usually i would be the one with the sad frown,
but now the tables finally turned around,
look up and tell me what you see,
hopefully your not crying because of me"




^story of my life.