those things

Sunday Morning and I'm thinking of starting to blog about my weeks again since I haven't been updating as much. Even though I already started school, summer is still in session. Shooot with this heat, it feels like summer will never end. Plus, I'm never really home except to really sleep, which I haven't really been doing as much either.. lol.

26; Ate WingStop with Target & Nita
Dress Shopped at F21 in Lakewood for Chelseys Sweet 16
27; WingStop (again I know) with Tommy & Mikey
Took out the car & kicked it with BestCousin
28; Red Robin with Cinday
Aladdin with Steph & Nita *thanks for the hook up Nocturnal
29; Chelsey's Sweet 16 Party
30; Baby Jessicas 18th Birthday

In other words, to all you guys who always ask me "How college?" Well first week it pretty much sucked and I hated it. Petitioning for at least 8 classes, two of them the same english class and I still don't get in! Wooomp ;( Waking up super early and staying at school for no reason was not so wonderful at all. Even though I do have 4 classes, I'm still not even a full time student. Oh if only it were high school.. all you needed to do was talk to your councelor and they got everything set for you. College, thats your own shit now. Oh well, now that I've gotten used to it.. it isnt pretty bad. I didn't get lost the first day of school so thats good. Even though I still don't have English, at least I got a Math, US History, Human Sexuality *which I know you guys would be like "Wtf?!" 'cause I wasn't even planning to take that class -.- and a Dance class.. which I still don't know why I even signed up for.. lol. Even though some of my classes are random, I like them. I mean I have some friends I already know & also met some new ones, sorta. Oh well.. the day in the life of college..

Taking it back from last week.. I feel a lot better. Getting distracted especially with school kinda helped. But still, there's just something I can't get off my mind. I was going good for almost one whole year, not giving a fcuk about guys. Target says to not think of it but how can I not think of it -.- "If it we're only that easy" I'm not sure if he even knows but to everyone, it kinda seems obvious I guess. It's been a while, but I guess people are "blind" sometimes :-/ The things I do.. even though everyone knows I wouldn't even do. I guess you have to take risks but I don't even think risks even work. Oh shoot me . Even though Nita & the girls said go for it, I don't even know. I guess heartbreak is a bitch and I'm just afraid to start again..

_leen

getting it together

I've been kinda down these past weeks. Even my cousin said I've been acting a little to sad and mad and asked if I was on " the time of the month" -.- lol. I guess everythings been all in front of me.. school, living at home, love life, friendships, you know.. I'll get over it soon. To anyone, my bad if I've been kinda mean and stuff, I'm just going through a phase I guess. As of now, here are a few things I've been up to since I've been blogging more poetry than my life.. Here my month of August for yaa

5th; Biked the whole damn Cerritos with Sunshine Bianca & Rex
6th; Pho with BestCousin & Ate Jet
7th; CUE with Sunshine & Nitaaa
9th; Lunch at Alberttacos with Sunshine & Nitaa
Aquarium Of The Pacific with Fave Indian Thomas & Melissa
11th; Target Arnel comes back from Virginia
Sunset Beach with Sunshine & Target
Visit Nocturnal Jan
12th; Early am Meteor Shower with Sunshine, Target, Nocturnal, Buttercup Sean, Panda, Liz, Jay & Jay's sister
Get my phone taken away :(
Bike ridee with Sunshine & Rex
13th; Car Wash with Target & Sunshine
14th; Sunshines Paaad
15th; Arnels Birthday
17th; First Day Of Schooool
20th; Pencil Tanalot Lisas Birthday
21st; Tanalots Birthday Dinner
22nd; Cj's Birthday Party
25th; In N Out with Mikey, Tommy, Claudia, Anita & Gay Ass Alora


Even though schools been on, summer is still on & I still needa finish my list shooot -.- ...


ps, I kinda sorta miss you

too afraid

I don't know why but i guess I'm just too afraid,
Even though your presence always makes my day,
I know I haven't tried but I wouldn't know where to start,
I guess my past makes me afraid for my heart,
I know I shouldn't care,
But its just to hard to not even stare,
If only I had some game,
Maybe you might just know my name,
Just one thing, Just one time of day,
I'd take back that one day just for you to stay.

if it were that easy

I don't really know what to say or how to say it,
I have this feeling but im not so sure about it,
Wanting to get to know you but scared to take that chance,
Whether to fall or get broken with one last dance,
What to do is getting me all twisted,
I guess Im just afraid I'll admit it.

oh boy

It's pretty old, but I love this song. I was probably in elementary school when I listened to them but I loved them. This song is kinda the story of my life right now. Oh how I miss these boys bands<3 Back when they used to overly match their clothes and also with each other, always having crazy dance moves, interesting haircuts.. you know, the god stuff. Enjoy while you can.. I guess you can say I'm going through those phases where I'm kinda looking back.. on music anyways aha.

the month of july

It's the first of August and finally I have time to update.

Since I havent been here since Maxwell birthday, lets take a recap.. since I was out every single day..

1st; Job hunting with the Bestcousin & bro.. fail.
2nd; Bike Shopping! and got my bike.. which is purple and I named, Kristin after my favorite, Jangwidit.
3rd; Girlfriends 18th Kayes birthday.. but kinna sad how I didnt even see her :(
4th; Korean Bbq & Cerritos Carnival with Steph. Food food food thats all I gotta say,
5th; Went to 2nd Street and tried Frosted cupcakes for the first time & went to the Aquarium of The Pacific with Sunshine Bianca & Target Arnel.. good day indeed.
7th; San Diego with the Parentals.. shop shop shop.
8th; Visited Mr.Henry after what kinda years?!
9th; Tried Wood Ranch for the first time with Cinday.. pretty bomb.
10th; Went to the Portugese Hall with Steph to watch a band and got to see Claudia after coming back from Vietnam.
11th; Cypress Swap Meet & finally kick it with my cousins Gina and Jane after a hella long ass time.
12th; Anaheim Garden Walk with Older Bro Junior, Ate Jet, Bestcousin and bro then after visited Gina & Janes new pad for a short time then beaached.
14th; Costa mesa with WhiteBestfriend Josh Keeegs.
15th; Had a good bike ride and visited the tennis girls & Mr.Henry
17th; Ate Red Robin with Cindaaay and also visited Brian Song plus we had a little Billiard lesson which was pretty interesting.
18th; Aloha Pool with Pencil Lisa, Jonathan, Cinday, Brian & Bong. Good game & goood night,
19th; Irvine Spectrum.. didn't find much.
20th; Cypress College Orientation.. boring as fcuk.
21st; Passed my permit test and then Biked and visited Bianca, kicked it with Anita & Cindy at Downtown Long Beach and also got to meet Jay & see Jan even though me & Bianca kinda felt bad for making them wait until we went back home lol.
22nd; Mini photoshoot with Simoneeee
23rd; Irvine Spectrum with Keegs
24th; Lunch with Steph, Raven, Lisa, Bianca & Anita and then Rachels Kickback at niiiight.
25th; First day of Driving schoooool
26th; Ate Pho & had another billiard lesson with CaiBob
27th; LA Zoo faail number #4 but finally got to reunite Arnel & Bianca together(; aha siiike
29th; Ate Roscoes Chicken & Waffles with Jan & after too me to Signal Hill for my first time
30th; Jet Skiiiing for the first time with Tiffany, ChrisFeng, Quintin, & Eric

Last but not least.. the 31st which was my bestfriend, bestG Ravens 18th birthday.. Elephant Bar & LBTC.

Oh how the month went so quick.. if I can take it back. Lots of adventures, random people.. it was great. I know this post isn't must.. but its an update all right.

As of now.. i'm pretty good. I know I havent socialized with as much people but I just need my time. I guess 'cause i'm just going through some issues & I guess confusion on what I want. To like or not to like, Classes to take in college, figuring out if I still want to become a teacher, trying to be the better person.. you know, alla that jazz.


I wish life could be easier some times. The month of July really made me think of a lot of things to the point where I kinda broke down.. At least I got some summer goals accomplished and tried new things. Hopefully I'll update more 'cause I get I need a place to vent. Oh well, time is everything and everything is time, you may be a dime but I still go for mine.. ha I wish.


_leen