Maybe, if so who knows.

I know my last post I told myself I was going to move on from Blogspot especially since I got caught up with Tumblr. I only really stopped using this since this was part of me when I was in high school and I needed to get over myself.

With that being said, I feel like I do want to get back here though. Sure Tumblr is easy and all but I feel like now I can't be so personal anymore how I did when I first started.

Oh well we'll see. I do miss this though. Maybe, just maybe I'll come to write to you again.

Dear Blogspot,

Sorry I have neglected you. I love you but I have to move on. You done good for me but it's too hard to update you when it's so inconevenient. Hopefully one day I'll come back. Until then, catch me here..

http://fuckyeahleen.tumblr.com

Bucket List

Blogspot, I'm so sorry for leaving you for a while but I'm back with updates and more. First here's my long Bucket List.

Watch an NBA basketball game with come courtside tickets(:
Make A World Record
Meet Dwight Howard & record him saying "Heeeey Worldddd"
Write all my poems in a book & publsh them
Meet Taylor Lautner
Watch Jimmy Kimmel Live in his studio
Meet James Franco & ask him to kiss my cheek
Meet Kobe Bryant, take a picture, ask him to sign my shoe & for a piece of gum
Learn how to properly drive a stick
Take a picture with Times Square in the background
Attend a Gay Parade
Watch Michael Buble Live
Go to New York, Australia, Japan and all over Europe
Have someone serenade to me
Go to Santa Monica Pier
Ride a Ferris Wheel
Fly A Kite
Go to the Amazon & Africa
Make my own foundation/charity
Buy myself a pair of Jordans
Swim with some Dolphins
Donate a bone marrow to someone in need ( if possible )
Watch an NBA All Star Game
Get drunk with Josh Kiger
Watch all the Twilight Saga Movies
Fist pump with the cast of Jersey Shore
Go to the Staples Center
Make 100 YouTube videos
Be in a music video
Eat at a 24hr Pho
Have Robert Pattinson bite me or my neck
Attend a Coachella concert
Go to the LA Zoo
Try Red Lobster
Own a Lakers Jersey
Have Jesse McCartney serenade to me
Go to the Staples Center
Attend a Harry Potter convention
Go to a Anime Convention
Watch Maroon 5 live and meet Adam Levine
Go to my High School reunion
Eat white rice!
Buy someone some flowers
Watch Robin Thicke Live
Go in the Playboy Mansion
Send someone a postcard
Have someone give me flowers lol
Watch George Lopez Live
Watch ABDC
Vegas with Quintin Mattear, Tiffany Francisco, Chris Feng & Eric Wilson
Attempt to make 100 Facebook video comments!
Go to the Hogwarts Amusement Park
See Manny Pacquiao live
Watch a Krump Battle
Climb on top of a School roof


It's pretty long but I'm still working on it. I'm probably going to start on it as soon as I get used to my whole college schedule. Any suggestions?

Updates,
_I'm slowly getting together, getting used to school and a new reality for me.
_Spring is coming which means work on my Bucket List and also taking out my Canon Rebel soon for pictures since I haven't shot in a while
_Forever on that Eclipse Ticket tip. I wanna go to the premiere sooooo bad! And no I am not a Twihard, I just gotta see Taylor Lautner, you knoow(;*
_Working on a 365 project soon on tumblr so I'll keep you guys posted.
_Super MIA but its all good.
_ And I'm gona watch Robin Thicke live on Feb 18, which is like Thursday haha


Oh well sorry for the long list. Not much but I just had to keep you guys posted. I'm sorry I haven't been updating. I'll try to get back to this since it's more easier to post my whole life story here than tumblr lol. If anyone can help my out with my Bucket List, hollaaaa! Until next time.

_Leen

the girl I used to be

So its 2010 and finally a new year. Usually people are happy it's a new year. I mean it's a time where you can start off fresh, make new resolutions and goals. A time where you can actually make changes for once.

It's only the 2nd day of the new year but I guess I just got a reality check. Earlier today I got an Im from an old friend asking if I was busy, which I was doing errands with my mom. Then he mentioned on what happened to me. How he hasn't seen me around. How I like disappeared.

Come to think of it, I have to admit.. I have disappeared. Back last year, I would be out. Making plans like no tomorrow. Having tennis practices, working on stuff for ASB, on that extra tip with Class Cabinet or Barkada Club, eating out, shopping, socialing, going to kickbacks or parties, hanging out with random people or whatever came up.

Now I'm completely the opposite. I haven't tried to join any sororities, sports, clubs or extra curricular activities. I still go shop but eat out but not as much with friends or anyone. I don't really talk to anyone except for probably 2 people in general. I go to kickbacks and parties but I leave before the fun even begins. Sometimes when there's something coming up, I usually don't go. When people want to kick it or even when I try to kick it, people either flake or it never goes through. & now when there's nothing to do, I'm actually fine with no doing anything anymore..

It's sad to say but I miss the girl I was back in high school. I'm not going to say I was popular but a lot of people knew me. It was nice when there was always something to do to keep myself busy. No matter how random the people are or the situation, I was always down. Now I'm just an Unsocial Butterfly..

I would say my reason is school but honestly thinking about it.. it really isn't anymore. Sometimes I wonder why I'm so M.I.A. I mean I have at least over 500 contacts and I can hit up anyone I want, just to ask what's good for tonight or if they want to kick it. But I guess I don't even bother.

I know people always say "you'll know your real friends after high school" And come to think of it, now I do. At the same time, I feel guilty not trying to be there for anyone at all.. Before I graduated, I always told everyone, even my friends that graduated before me that I'll always be there, we'll still hang out, etc.

I guess I sorta lied, and I'm sorry. I wish I can turn back time and make up for all those planned events, show up to every birthday, stay longer but I can't..

I honestly have to say I'm sorry.. even to myself. I think I just need time.